I hadn’t even taken off my boots.

I walked straight off that tarmac, through customs, into the cab, and into that quiet hospital room. My name still felt foreign on the nurse’s lips—“You’re Aven?”—like it hadn’t belonged to me for the past eight months.

The second I stepped inside, she was there. Tana. Eyes rimmed red, cradling something impossibly small.

I’d imagined this moment every night under desert skies. I’d pictured the weight, the smell, the softness. But I didn’t imagine… silence.

She didn’t smile. Didn’t cry. Just looked at me like she was still deciding something.

I stepped closer. My hands were shaking like I’d just pulled a trigger. “Can I…?”

She nodded. Barely.

And when she placed him in my arms—

God.

Everything stopped.

The war, the noise, the months of missed calls and blurry video chats… none of it mattered. Just his little face. This tiny, wrinkled miracle with my mother’s ears and his mother’s lips.

But then—

I saw it.

Just a flash. A flicker of something in Tana’s expression as I looked down at him. A tightening in her jaw. Not fear… not exactly guilt… something else.

My brain caught up before my heart did.

The math. The timing. The birthdate.

He was born early, she’d said. But I counted those weeks. I know what month I left.

And then, there was his eyes.

They were green. Neither of us have green eyes.

But I know who does.

I served with him.

Same unit. Same deployment.

Same city.

I didn’t say a word. Just held that baby like he was mine. Like nothing in the world was unraveling inside me.

But I looked at her. And she looked away.

And that told me everything.

I stayed in that hospital room for two more hours.

Held him. Fed him. Whispered to him like he could somehow understand that I wanted to be enough for him—even if everything about that moment felt like a lie.

Tana barely said anything. She watched me the way someone watches a car crash they can’t stop.

When the nurse came in to check vitals, I took the chance to step out. Said I needed some air. I didn’t mention that I hadn’t really breathed since I walked in.

I sat on one of those metal benches outside the emergency entrance. Lit a cigarette I didn’t really want. Let it burn between my fingers more than anything.

Then I called him.

Dacen.

I knew it was a risk. He was still overseas. Might not even answer.

But he did.

“Aven? Everything alright?”

His voice sounded too casual. Too normal. Like he hadn’t been in my head every day since I saw those green eyes.

“Yeah,” I lied. “He’s here. Born two weeks ago.”

“That’s incredible, man. Congratulations. How’s Tana?”

I paused. There it was again—too smooth. Too friendly.

“She’s quiet,” I said.

Then I didn’t speak. Just let silence sit on the line long enough for him to wonder what I wasn’t saying.

“Aven,” he said, and I swear something shifted in his voice. “Is something wrong?”

I didn’t answer his question. I asked mine instead.

“You ever think about that night in Al-Kuwari? When the comms went down and you stayed back to fix them?”

Another pause.

He remembered. I could hear it in the hesitation.

“Yeah,” he said slowly. “Of course.”

“That was the night she messaged me that the contractions started. That she was scared. That was the last time I saw her face before the blackout.”

He didn’t respond.

“You told me later the lines were down for hours,” I went on. “But she got a video call from someone that same night.”

“Aven, listen—”

“No,” I cut in. “You listen. I held a baby today. A baby who’s supposed to be mine. But you and I both know there’s something off about that.”

He went quiet again.

And maybe I expected him to lie. Maybe I was bracing for some convoluted excuse, or righteous denial.

But he didn’t do that.

“I didn’t mean for it to happen,” he said, voice raw. “She was scared. You were gone. I was just trying to comfort her at first, and then… I don’t know. It happened. Just once.”

That word echoed—once.

Like it made a difference.

“She was vulnerable,” he added. “We both were.”

I should’ve hung up. Cursed him out. Thrown the phone across the parking lot.

But instead, I just asked the question I hadn’t wanted to face.

“Is he yours?”

Dacen hesitated. “I don’t know.”

“Have you talked to her?”

“No. We both agreed not to. It was… it was a mistake, Aven. I thought she’d tell you. I thought you’d find out and hate us both and I deserved that.”

I closed my eyes. Let the cold October air bite my face.

The part that hurt the most wasn’t that it happened. It was the quiet conspiracy after. The choice they made to lie—to let me walk into that hospital thinking I was holding my son.

I hung up.

Didn’t say another word.

That night, I didn’t go back to the hospital.

I slept in my brother’s guest room. Woke up to a message from Tana: You left. I don’t blame you. But please don’t disappear. He needs you.

I stared at the message for a long time.

He needs you.

Not I need you.

Not come back.

Just… him.

The next few days were a mess of silence. I stayed away. She didn’t push. I think we both needed the space to figure out what came next.

I talked to a lawyer. Asked what my rights were if he turned out not to be mine. The answer was complicated. But I wasn’t even sure I wanted to fight.

Then, four days later, something unexpected happened.

Tana asked to meet.

We sat on a park bench near the hospital. She didn’t bring the baby.

She looked tired. Like she hadn’t slept since the day I walked out.

“I’m sorry,” she said before I could speak. “It wasn’t planned. It wasn’t love. It was weakness. And I hated myself the second it happened.”

I didn’t say anything.

“I didn’t know I was pregnant until weeks later,” she continued. “And even then, I told myself it was yours. Because I wanted it to be.”

“Did you know it wasn’t?”

She shook her head. “I suspected. But I didn’t want to know for sure. I was afraid if I did, I’d lose everything.”

“You still might.”

“I know,” she whispered. “But I’m not going to lie anymore. I’m going to take a paternity test. And whatever it says, I’ll deal with it.”

I should’ve felt relief. But I didn’t. Just this deep, hollow ache where hope used to live.

We took the test two days later.

Then waited.

Two weeks passed like a fog. I went back to the hospital once, just to see him. Tana let me hold him again. It felt just as complicated as the first time.

I looked at that tiny face and didn’t know what to hope for.

Then the results came.

He wasn’t mine.

I sat on my brother’s porch with the envelope in my hands and just stared at the paper. I thought I’d cry, or scream, or fall apart. But I didn’t.

I just felt still.

And then, slowly, the truth landed in a way I didn’t expect.

Even though he wasn’t mine by blood… I still felt something. A connection that didn’t vanish with a test result.

I remembered how he calmed when I held him.

How he looked up at me like I was the whole world.

That mattered. Maybe not legally. But emotionally, it did.

Tana called that night. Said she understood if I never wanted to see them again. Said she would never ask for anything.

But I asked if I could stop by.

When I walked into her apartment, she was feeding him.

She looked shocked to see me.

“I just want to talk,” I said.

We sat on the couch. For a long time, neither of us spoke.

Then I finally said it.

“I’m not his father. But I was there when he took his first bottle. I was the one who soothed him when he cried that night in the hospital. I’ve seen more war than most people ever will. But nothing scared me like holding him for the first time.”

She looked like she might cry.

“I don’t forgive you,” I said. “Not yet. Maybe not ever.”

She nodded slowly.

“But I’m not walking away either. Not from him. Because whether or not he shares my DNA… he didn’t ask for any of this. And if I can be something good in his life, then I want to try.”

Her face crumpled.

“Are you sure?” she asked.

“No,” I admitted. “But I know what kind of man I want to be. And it’s not the one who runs.”

Over the next few months, we rebuilt something—not as a couple, but as co-parents. Friends, maybe. Some days were hard. Others were peaceful.

Dacen eventually reached out. I didn’t respond.

He transferred to a different unit the next year.

I heard through a mutual friend that he’d started therapy. That he’d written me a letter but never sent it.

I didn’t need it.

The healing I wanted wasn’t in his words. It was in the everyday moments—rocking the baby to sleep, learning to make a bottle one-handed, hearing him laugh for the first time.

That kid—he’s not my blood.

But he’s my son in every way that counts.

And every time I look into those green eyes now, I don’t see betrayal anymore.

I see a second chance.

A reminder that love isn’t just about who you are to someone by biology.

It’s about who you choose to be, every day.

Sometimes life doesn’t hand you the story you expected.

But that doesn’t mean it can’t still be a good one.

Sometimes… even better.

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